In Love’s Shoes

I wanted a way where my love for all things beautiful, “Stop” Let me pause right there, and put a pin in that for just a second. The way beauty is perceived is way deeper and way more complex than the swipe left or right concept. I learned later, that life, or what we perceive as life, can best be described, or simplified as though we are in a synthetic world or giant computer game, for all the analytic beings out there, for we leave no one behind, the data analyst would compare all the experiences that I was blessed with, to what was needed for our higher self, Always if anything, remember this, and when times are tough, and energy is low and the sky is heavy and you all know what I am talking about, the feeling of, “like who turned up the gravity” life becomes heavy. Know this, everything has a purpose, so know with all your heart even when it is tough, or painful, that what is happening right now, or every second, every up, every down, ALL of it, is for a much higher purpose, serving multiple purposes within that one, that you may, or may not see, that seeing as we know it, is not the only way to see. Visually seeing, doesn’t matter. This is a just knowing, a knowing that you feel, a confident knowing that can not be swayed, like a blade of grass blowing in the many directions that wind and air will go. You become a tree, steadfast in your belief, as anchored as the tree of life is itself. Deeply rooted in knowledge, that you are important, and that can never be taken from you not even swayed out of you. As you believe in yourself, you will rise, not from an egotistical standpoint, but a form of elevation, that brings the soul to the surface, and leaves all the impurities behind, and from that new perspective, your belief in God, should not, but will transfer, to yourself feeling as though you, yourself alone are God. Take notes of this part if any, It is part of your test, to gauge your ego and pride, to see if you can keep those ever present want to rise above all emotions, you know the want to be king, or queen in check, that every single one of us have. As we all know if honest with our self, a single compliment can place you back where you do not want to be. A place of uncertainty that lies within, that can with just a single word, or a blink of an eye, can have you become prideful. A Dr. Jeckle, and Mr. Hide, scenario, one side with the potential to become all that you want, but is preoccupied with watching itself, to make sure it doesn’t hurt anyone, or that you dont come across as deceptive or arrogant, When in truth your protecting everyone else from you. So you descise your herosim, in a cloak of confidence, and arreogenece, when it is fear the entire time. This is all a test on your pride and your ability to discern the difference, and regulate through it all, Remember all aspects of yourself are being put to the test, ALL at once. What I suggest is prayer, deep uprooted prayer from your core, picture in your mindseye the being you love more than life itself, and pray, for God is in all, and can be anything and everything they want to be. Pray outloud from the heart, Until you feel this every warming presence holding you. Until the feeling as though you and only you are important, are no longer, That the I, me, myself, concept is transformed into the us, we, ours, together mindset, and is unwavering, unable to me moved, are in it’s place. As we know and see that man does not need much to feel above anything. That the only being that can stay humble and modest during these test, to be the servant of servance, Even though they are the highest of highs, is God. We tend to find ourselves of more value than anything, or anyone. It takes a plethra of trial and era, to shake this. Be patient with your self, You must remind yourself, that God is present and that you are not God, You are moving as one with God, being blessed with assistance. To know that not even a single adam, has done anything alone, not even Jesus was without the holy spirit. Keep your faith, for it is all love no matter who, or what, your religions are, even what your beliefs are, that you can always draw one parellel through them all, READY? LOVE. Love is in all the stories and books. So with that said whats the polor opposite of love? That is correct Hate, after you take breath, and breath through your ego, the thing that just blipped through your chest, scared of change’ disguised as noble anger, to defend the honor of your belief. Think about it, all of it, is one. That one, can morph, divide, multiply, or even add, and there is not a single religion that applies limitations to their God. So this belief, or knowing that your God, is also my God, that God can change into every single thing they so choose. Please keep that knowing in your heart, and do not let it go anywhere, because arrogance, and boastfulness are a recipe for disaster, and will creep into the pot. After doing so, you start to see, and feel, that just maybe we are much smaller than we appear to be. Humility takes over, understanding, compassion start to become the breeze beneath your sail, and just like that, you are off in the right direction, feeling the warmth of Gods promise, and the utopia, pangea concept you have been so longing for in the horizon.That maybe space is the deepest depths of an even greater ocean. That we are just a tiny little speck on the tip of a flower. From this vantage point and much higher, with every weight you shed, Clarity comes, and then we perceive and appreciate all tests, how tailored, and perfect fit, it all is, it serves the needs of the soul and the needs of others all happening at once. My holistic 34 years of learning lessons that Universal University has lovingly enrolled me in. With extracurricular activity and endurance testing, making me American-made, Ford tough. Up, down, up, really down, come on, everyone knows what I am talking about, I call it God’s heartbeat. You can not have up without down, You will not appreciate anything good or any kind of blessing without having it, losing it, repeat, a constant give and take, up, down, good day, bad day. Without the heartbeat, the body will die, the mental stimulation, if you take a look, from a higher standpoint, is all a blessing, giving mental stimulation. Things in motion live, and things that stand still die, hence why we are always in motion even when we think we aren’t. So everyone bear with me as I attempt to share this experience, please know that I am trying to reverberate truth in all that I do. So always know when reading my blog, or anything written by myself, please try to always know and remember. Write it down on a brightly colored sticky note, and place it everywhere, simply to remind you that the system, we’ll the system designed for failure wants you back to “Normal” and that means having you forget I am your friend, and your number one fan. Also most importantly, just because I disagree, does NOT mean I am your enemy. Discourse is OK, healthy in fact. Remember always, I am speaking from a place of humility and modesty, not from a thrown, or a place harboring malice, nor even a pedestal. I am not boasting, or claiming any kind of superiority or betterment, nor from a place of inferiority. I am speaking from a place of existence, the plain or realm of balance and complete equality, but Let’s keep it simple. I simply want to be a beacon of hope and a symbol of faith that you aren’t alone, you are not crazy, and if you are. Then you're still not alone, and if you are crazy, then I am out of my mind. Also everyone “Normal” or what is perceived as “Normal” is a setting on a washing machine, and sounds monotonous, and does not resonate with me, I am NOT a 9 to 5 kind of being, you can not “desk” a being like me, I will chew through the desk liturally, to get out. I am what you would call a thrill seeker. Narrating in all languages, my very hands-on, interactive human experience, all based on mirrored optics and illusions, having you, face you, but the complete opposite version of you. like chess, but you're constantly changing what color you represent, changing with every fleeting second. Feeling as though time itself is on the fritz, and you're not too far off. If I were, and I am going to attempt to be honest, always. Because we humans are excellent in the art of fibbing, we are kings and queens of lies, lol, I now get the name the “lion king” get it? I am 1000% sure you do. to be honest, Speaking just for me, and me alone, I would lie so good, I thought it to be true. For me to admit that in something so public, then it should follow with an apology. Everyone I am so sorry, I could not tell the truth then, and struggle now with it, but know I am trying to be better, and that I love you, all of you, and that has never been closest to the truth. So while reverberating in truth, think of the opposites attract theory that is known all over as a “normal” occurrence. The thing that happens to us human beings, and to magnets, let’s say. How you fall head over boots for this being, but don’t really know why, kinda doesn’t make sense. Let for fun’s sake, throw theories out there, just for the sake of what else are you going to do? Ignore it? as though everything and its meaning are not changing, good luck, and I mean it. If God says it is time for a change, you can do it in a fun manner, and as painless as possible, or you can get dragged through it, like a kid getting dragged to the bathroom for cursing in the middle of a church service, at its quietest point, and to be reminded of manners. I want to be clear, I am Speaking from experience, when I say, you better choose the fun way. So let’s simplify it, think of magnets, and apply magnets to humans, and you create the polar opposite law of attraction, if you accept this in magnets’ then you can accept this theory in beings, who so happen to invent magnets, with some help of course. If it works on magnets, can’t it work on human beings? We run on energy, and when you have a second, evaluate the kind of energy you are feeling, and how many differences, you can detect. To each other, when you are together you are so drawn to each other, but you know it’s not right, that it cannot be the one love that you seek, because you're literally glitching, breaking down even mentally. So for those who understand, this concept, forgive me for the rambling on, go on. But it must be understood in full, and we all learn differently. So have compassion by being patient with each other. Understanding that to progress forward, You must trust, to complete this task or lesson, and not only does it feel like a draw, 100% complete opposites but equal, cancel each other out, one must willingly give up, the ultimate pride destroyer. But it works and is much needed. Trust in the intuitive feelings, that we are conditioned to question. Trust, for that, makes the ground fertile, and not only will love start to grow, but will thrive, and before you know it YOU, can grow. Even in the darkest, and dankest of places, how it can make or break you, and you need to Trust, I promise this process can and will be the thing that is going to be the most challenging, and the one thing I have never attempted with success. With hopes, I am explaining it without reservations, and in complete clarity, That not a soul left on this planet could or would be confused. From whenever, or where ever, they stand in the timeline, they would always not understand. So I pray, No matter what stance, or side they accept to be true. That this very blog, and speaking to me directly, will never cause confusion, and only result in clarity and not confusion, I am doing my very best to explain what I have experienced, and experiencing using everything I have ever learned in this life, while becoming aware of past lives drawing parallels, and analyzing what works and does not work. Trying to use different perspectives to have complete share my experience clearly, and as best I can. i want to be ble to translatei never even had not so much aseven a blip from analytics, nor holistic. Taking this data applying to this life, I, a holistic being, broken down and explained holistically and analytically, separate but together, as one, as much as I am humanly able with the hands-on learning lessons, for my style of learning is to, do about it not read about it, but is ever changing with the years and experience 34 and increasing every second has, and is blessing me with, hoping everyone who read this is inspired if anything to come out of the closet, and share their experiences. That alone will help release and set free the captives, without them freaking out, who do not even know their captives while staying calm, and not at all disturbed by this new knowledge. Sounds like a job for the bomb squad. Or maybe it is not that bad it just feels that way because we need to leave our safety net of knowing or synthetic knowing and dive deep into change and who loves change, then the real knowing, or knowledge you doubt because you have been conditioned to think, that is fake, or “red flagged” so how do you tell people the truth, without force, or deceptive perspective, while not being viewed with suspicion with every movement. Ready for the answer, simple you just be you, or me, meu, and know with all your heart they see you, and they hear you, they may not acknowledge you, but they need time, to run it all through their head, to trrsanslate it back to them to analyze again, to see you have been there from the beginning. So while you wait for them to go through, take a minute, to remind yourself, to love yourself, it is a much-needed step to transition. Providing what you perceive as needing from someone else, or outside influence is you sustaining you, but need to be tricked at first because there is no “conceivable way” that you would have felt worthy, or able to believe you are strong at that moment. Then you see as you progress so do they, you get to watch them accept the fact that you are equally as smart, and that alone anchors you in believing. The same lesson just different perspectives, perceived, and received differently. So first, they think you are wealthy, and that happiness is bought. The money thing sticks for a good while, so patience = compassion, so just know, they snap out of it eventually, after they have exhausted all possibilities and reasons, why and how, are YOU so happy? They even suspect the almond joy, Pepsi thing you have going on, Off topic my all-time favorite snack. Sounds like one of the early stages of interactive games, remember the bop it, twist it, spin it, to use imagery to hopefully bring to surface visuals of what I am saying, or writing rather. That game, you had to do all these things at once while feeling everything, and looking like an escapee, from as politely as able a coo-coo bird’s nest, all while crying. Honey sweety, let me tell you!! None of which are pretty, but breathtaking at the same time. You are perceiving yourself while being you, but watching you, as though you, are raising yourself. All while making sure you don’t go mad, I mean the proof is in the pudding, has everyone seen the painting of the screaming dude with the melting clocks, uhm hello, message to earth, which not everyone can handle, only a select few. But they have to somehow share their experience, so others can evolve, not to gain power, or one-up someone. I mean what good is the sky if you're the only bird flying in it? I hope and pray that these words jailbreak at least one, I know these are the cheat codes or life hacks, but free will is free will, some people will choose to not see, that thing they long for, need, or want, is the very thing, right in front of them. You can not force them to see you, they have to want and choose to. So again patience is the key to the land of All, we all have it, but notice one detail about this magic key, when it works, it only shows itself for what you truly love, way deep down. The subconscious is you, and it can never lie even when your words say one thing, your body will literally, and physically start to reverberate, and try its best to yell out the truth, everything is the same but you are reading, seeing, and all has new meaning, the truth. Trusting is a huge part and ingredient that is much needed, all of this tough love taught, learned, and tested, passed, failed, I don't know what it wants from me, “feeling” or the answers, But do know all at once, seen through the kaleidoscope of ever-changing constantly, always, changing dimensions, angles, perspectives while being receptive to the perspective, ALL of this while in the very world your learning is a lie while attempting to look sane, until your like. '‘Hmmm I can’t hold it together, and when you start to answer yourself, like “ Girl hold it together, I am not going down like this” Just know that is a sign that you are headed in a great direction. Remember This is tangible proof and serves as a reminder that you are not crazy, and you are most definitely NOT alone, and surrounded by love, you can not see it all the time, only sometimes, but can feel it all the time, with patience, and trust that it is all love, and leading to the best version of you, and from your guardians who you thought for a fleeting moment that the people who love you the most, and in your head for just a moment, have convinced yourself into thinking where enemies. Let me add a very important factor In all this, you must stay as sober as you can for clarity is a much-needed ingredient in the cake of understanding, and to be more receptive, which leads to memory, when you don’t, you get a 51st date kind of outcome, and it makes the process more painful than it has to be. So my loves I am speaking from experience, if you want to transition, or evolve painlessly, or just all around easier, when you start to molt, or feel a deep inevitable change, stay away from anything that can hinder you from believing in you, you will just lean on the excuse that you are high, or blame whatever it is, that it can possible be under the sun, instead of the truth. Evolution, and God’s love. You blame all things negative, unworthy of your truth, because this to happen in your head. To correct you it is, just in your head, people see it, feel it, everyone is just scared. It is all real and you are evolving for those who struggle, you will make it for no one, NOT a one, gets left behind. Be patient, and you can always call me, Anthony Quinones, the method of contact of your choice. All of what is happening is just to get us home? We are not only here to share the vision we have for Spare & Repair Restoration, and its purpose. But we also want to serve as help for the future while staying anchored in today. All the signs, and guardians we see, they are there to help us, to reveal ourtruth. I feel responsible for those that are unable to see and the reason I have been lovingly given such a gift that represents all the power to most, when looked at from a certain vantage point, as the Marvel, or DC movies all say with great power come great responsibility. I as though given the torch that contains the vision of truth itself, that the touch contains the flame of truth itself, that burns away the veil of lies. Giving us sight, that was always intended for us to be able to have but wasn’t our time. NOW we are able to see, but some choose to ignore them, for what they are. Trust me when I say what we perceive as ugly, is truthfully the most beautiful thing you have ever laid your eyes on. when I do it without thinking, and feel the deep-rooted programming that makes me feel better or feels like the me with purpose, the calling, or the thing that feels the most natural, or done without any effort like, for Me is to bring order to the places, our friend Kaos has lovingly visited. To share my eye-opening, “Holy! What is the sigma? OMG! What is Happening Experiences? As best as I am able, with a sense of what I call humor, but for some I may just be annoying, and that’s ok, this isn’t Pokemon you don’t gotta catch them all, they will eventually follow their heart, and when they realize that thing that’s sounds like a drum in there chest and has been present the entire time, the whole time, and nothing but the time, '“GET IT”, In time no matter what truth surfaces, so just be patient like my mother always says, good things come to those who wait. Hated hearing that along with the word no, But like all things you only learn to appreciate them, is when they are not there. SO write this down, the old fashion way, pen and paper, trust me you will appreciate the simple things during the transitional period. I learned that trying is the beginning. Attempting anything, especially a dream or something that is pulling you, and you haven’t the slightest clue why, but you know is right, may that be your compass. For Love is constant, always there even when you do not see it, Trust me it is there, Love is universal and don’t you forget it. To be continued, hope you enjoyed the first, but not last Blog from myself Anthony Quinones-savino, owner of Spare & Repair Restoration, Sparing & Reparing people, Restoring faith back into the icy hearts of many. In Love’s Shoes. for it is the who, what, where, when, and why of my existence to be an inspiration for others like-minded to get the heck out of the closet. IT IS ALL LOVE!!!!